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Today I revisited my past and I looked at all the things I've been rejected and brought to my knees for, on all the things I've believed or been made to believe are wrong with me, what I have been made to feel inferior and worthless for.
For the first time ever, they made me smile because now I have closure to all of them. I heard the sound of your voice ringing in my ear saying that you love me and it forgives all those tasteless years and wraps a warm blanket around my cold feet... I don't have to worry about those insecurities anymore, because time after time you've kissed them goodbye, and I get to sleep with the taste of your lips and without any of them. Now I realize, I haven't cried myself to sleep since you came into my life.
You, my love, make me thank God for all the suffering on my path that he sent you to heal and you make me thankful for the healing and the scars. I'm proud of the scars and I'm more proud that they will always be a reminder of what I've been through to get to you.
I shouldn't feel worried or scared of being unloved anymore, of being misunderstood and taken for granted, or even afraid I'd grow old and die alone and with bitterness in my heart where should have been love. Because your voice will always be in my ears, my eyes looking into yours and our hands glued together for this life and all lives to come... All because you saw me, all because of the love we no longer know how to survive without, the love that makes every other dream become secondary to it.

Sonnet II: Where faith will take you, there you shall find dreams

Where faith will take you, there you shall find dreams

All dressed up fancy, lining paths anew,

I shall not draggle fear across their stream,

Tread on them fiercely until I only have few,

Your dreams are treasures left alone for years,

Their eyes fly open bridging souls to life,

The souls awake, deliver us from tears,

Deliver us from laughter, from the strife,

I shall not fear their strange deliverance,

I’ll look upon my faith in dreams absurd,

I’ll take their hands and let them guide my dance,

May our feet take us where we can’t be scared,

I am the dreamer of the dream tonight,

I’m Questions and Answers, drenched in bright light.

Seek to be what you think you do deserve

Seek to be what you think you do deserve,

If you think you deserve kindness, be kind,

If you deserve passion, be passionate,

If you think you deserve blindness, stay blind,

Only the weak can't be compassionate.

Do not your virtue for later days reserve,

If you sought out the great pleasures of love,

You shall not find them in a hateful face,

Did birds ever find what they sought above

By staying meekly grounded in their place?

Incubus 3

Drink in the ruby of my burning vein

And let the world fall into our abyss,

Drink in the silver of my pain,

Let it wash over our hearts with Its bliss,

I will break in the sound of your thunder,

I will walk through your hurricane,

Brace myself as you take me under,

To drown me in an ocean of your rain

In your arms, I'm murdered and resurrected,

In your eyes, I'm redeemed  of all what's sane,

Madness is our territory and I'm infected

With virtue, so let vice extend its strain,

For you I'd walk hand in hand with death,

Let him drag me through every darkened lane,

Let your love strangle me to the very last breath,

Let me die for immortality, for freedom in my chain.

Wonderland of the Dead Girls

Come for me one more time

And watch my jaws clinch you in,

You think that I'm above the crime?

You'll just be another scar on my skin,

it's not your game, and you can not win.

It's not your soul, and you can't collect,

The beast has owned me long ago,

Long before you could even protect

Me, and I went along with no further ado,

A little girl in his castle in nowhere to grow,

A little girl following him down the street,

Following his twisted paths into the wood

Putting her footsteps on the trace of feet

That stained the muddy autumn with blood,

The devil has collected me long before the flood.

The devil has branded me with a fire,

And then left me with a flame to face the winter

It's normal, I know, preach to the choir,

I'm just one of them, rotten in the center,

And you expect me to bow when you enter.

And you expect me to have mercy,

And not lock you inside my deadly heaven,

To strip you on a tree trunk for all to see,

How I'll trace your veins open for all sins seven,

And you'll enjoy the blessings of my hearts given.

You'll enjoy being another brown ugly scar

On the walls of my decaying mortal matter,

You know, wanting everything can only take you so far,

Your soul slides into wonderland with the mad scatter

And what you thought was Alice has to be the mad hatter.

Kill Me

Kill Me,

Tears filled up her eyes,

And joy filled her tight chest,

Kill Me,

Before this moment dies

And rots like a sickened jest.

See Me,

Bare and Bound to your wall,

Weak as a autumn leaf, fallen,

See Me,

Look me right in the soul,

Its Dream is from your demons stolen.

Love Me,

Fire transcends in my heart,

And its smoke up high forms a cloud,

Love Me,

Because it was meant from the start,

Make me yours, make me proud.

Hate Me,

Her mind ran a thousand miles,

And fell into life's abyss,

Hate Me,

Before another angel smiles,

And turns all your hate into bliss.

Fight Me,

Don't give in to my eyes,

for if you do, then we both fall,

Fight Me,

Or like the smoke in the skies,

We'll dissipate quicker than we'll enthrall.

Understand Me,

When I silently beg you to,

When I'm struggling too hard to speak,

Understand Me,

And when I say that I love you,

Tell me you know the words are too weak.

Kiss Me,

Over a silent night's stream,

With a campfire burning deep within you,

Kiss Me,

Before you let out my final scream,

And winter kills my fire in you.

Kill Me,

If you will not set me free,

If you will not lock me down,

Kill Me,

If you'll not love me, take my love's debris,

To an ocean where a thousand corpses drown.

Home Of Cards

I lived in a Home of Playing Cards

And a giant Stonehenge in the center,

The druids come to visit with no regards

To what the walls scream when they enter,

There goes falling my Home of Cards,

Lost as a snowflake in deserts of winter,

The druids had passed all my golden guards,

And prayed for change from a stone inventor,

They passed through me, I resented the yards

And as they crossed, I loved each of them, a mentor

Who dreams of freedom demanded in shards

From a solid house that's such a quick fainter?